From the sunny rooftop / Using the spaces the Faerie Princess left

Today I recorded my video from the sunny rooftop of our house. There will be rain on Friday, then starting from next week with an important drop in temperatures.

Boscolino is Alive. Still very weak, but Alive, with a slight improvement I believe.

In a way or another, I believe that there will be a miracle in my story with Annelies. An unsuspected door will open, all of a sudden. Perhaps it solely depends on me, in the sense that, for long, I waited for external forms of support (recommendations from friends, then the interview I did but that has not yet been published). Yet, it could be that at the end the most important part are those writings, mine, and those from Annelies' perspective that I ghostwrite.

That, of course is a unusual thing, yet Annelies created the space for me to do so. And for long, I was reluctant to use that space. Yet, the space is here. I could use it even more. It all depends of my mindset. For several months, my mindset was very tired and so I was blocked in writing. Now, slowly, I am retrieving a more positive mindset.

In her last direct text to me, Annelies had asked me to remember her by the spaces she left behind, and to look for her, guaranteeing to me I would find her. I have already found her in part, as in June 2023 Annelies for the first time used the pseudonym of the Princess of Ylliriel, and initiated the novel we wrote together. But I still did not manage to meet her again in person, and that knot is related to the knot of her childhood trauma, which is related to her parents.

Having a trauma to show herself and the depth of her feelings, Annelies created this gap, this space, where I could help her express all what she never expressed. Also, through characters she crafts, she guides me subtly. It happens every day. Someone could think me crazy to believe that. Yet, I'm a rational person, capable of reasoning, capable of adding up numbers, signs and sychronicities, and of finding patterns that perhaps at first glance are not visible. 

There is a pattern. Annelies is behind it. 

And that means that the final aim is healing and reunion, from my side, and from hers.

Sometimes something seems very complicated, even hopeless. Yet, miracles exist. Also, when we have the faith, it helps those miracles to happen.

Annelies and I will be together, and this is not a doubt, and it is something Annelies recognized even in the past.