While cooking - 24th of July

Today I recorded my video while cooking... The size of the video is too large to be uploaded here (more than 100 MB), so you can watch it on this google drive link: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1V_3Hruo4IvreI7beNHp8S9Owl_4D5i4O/view?usp=drive_link

For long I stopped enjoying my life, and I also stopped listening to music, because of what had happened with Annelies, because of the unfairness of the behavior of her entourage toward me, and in particular Red-Oak. 

Because of the harsh judgements, manifested directly or indirectly through very disparaging acts and behaviors, in particular I am making reference to you, Little-Flute. I am a sensitive soul and anything of the kind is enough to hurt me and deeply injure me. 

I wanted to do the good, and was treated in a tremendous way, never having a chance to explain myself, to say my version of facts. 

I felt a deep disgust toward the world, and I just wanted to hide, to disappear from any social circle, to retreat in nature where plants and animals, contrarily to human beings, do not lie. 

But when I understood that Annelies was a victim, the victim of the rigidity, lack of empassion, and devastating divorce of her parents, I pardoned her in my heart. That is why, I gradually reconnected myself to the digital world, and this is where I found the strength to start asking justice, for myself...... and for her. 

I understood that it was something Annelies could not do, trapped inside her pain, trapped into her tremendous fears, of what had happened when she was only 7 years old. And I understood that Annelies wanted me to help her, and had been waiting for me to give my help. Only, being a very complex situation, I had to give my help the right way, by giving her all the time and space to heal. In 2017 - 2018, Annelies already was asking for my help, but back then, I did not know how to give my help, because every brush to her childhood wound brought an immense amount of pain in her. I had to avoid the slightest brush, and I ignored how to do that back then. 

Also, the circunstances were not yet the right ones back then. The positive aspect of all what happened, of the unfairness that was committed against me, is that, despite themselves, Red-Oak and his clan gave me a right to talk, and to be listened to. As they well know by now that a mistake was committed against me, they're all very careful, because they know that despite being a foreigner and having less rights than they do in the Netherlands, the Law is from my side this time, as I can prove that Red-Oak committed an unfairness and lied to the house of justice of the Earldom. And I can prove it by revealing many personal, intimate stories about Red-Oak that Annelies wrote me about.

That is not my aim, of course, but I am conscious that it's been my protective shield during these 22 months of one-sided correspondence with Red-Oak and family. The fact that I know so many intimate stories about them is already the proof that Red-Oak lied, as he claimed that a very shallow acquaintance existed between his daughter and I. And he did so publicly. 

That is how, with what Red-Oak did almost 7 years ago, he gave me voice to the chapter of his life and his clan. It's very unwise to hurt and harm someone in an unfair way for someone like Red-Oak who carries the title of Earl, one of the most important Earls of the Earldom. 

My intentions have always been peaceful and positive, and they still are! What I need is for you, Red-Oak, and for you, Green-Rose, and for you, Little-Flute, to believe that my intentions are positive, to believe that I am a fair person, to believe that I deserve to be heard, and to believe that I deserve your excuses. Then, and only then, we will all be able to act in the best interest of Annelies' peace of heart and happiness.

And now, as you can see, I am determined to bring the truth to light. I will tolerate this lie no longer. There are many elements that the family of Annelies will discover soon, I hope, but that, for now, I won't share publicly.