Stars will Align

Today I recorded my video from the rooftop of the barnhouse, a clear day, but tomorrow there will be a rain storm, and next week a serious snow storm over the mountains. 

A bright news is that Boscolino is improving ! He is still weak, but over the day he made progresses, started eating again a bit more and solid/dry food, and came to see me this afternoon, when for the last week he was almost constantly sleeping. It's a real miracle. And he knows he owes me his life. He comes and sits just underneath me. It's very touching, as he's still tired, and it's an effort for him. But in this way, he feels safe.

And my story with Annelies is of course not over, far from it, no matter what her entourage may have thought, or may think. What happened 6, 7 years ago is a real shame. It is not something I like to linger on, nor to recall, but it is from time to time important to explain why I am so determinate now. Annelies confided her most precious secrets and memories with me, and asked from me things that human beings usually do not ask from another person. Despite me being a foreigner, she asked for my help, in many ways, and at multiple times, because, to quote her words, I was the only one who could truly understand her. And this is how I felt too. That she was the only person who truly understood me. That is why her words felt entirely authentic in my chest. It was not a random compliment, it was the truth. Over the years, I had the opportunities to see how great and deep and lasting was my impact on Annelies, and her impact on me. How, the presence of the other, his / her ideas, thoughts, feelings, emotions, dreams had the power to shape one another.

This is the meaning of true love. Something that gives a deeper meaning and a direction to your life. I was seeking Annelies all my life, before meeting her. I did not know her name, yet, it was her I was looking for. And she was looking for me.

But, when you meet such a deep and precious love, it is also scary because, if you have a wound, or a trauma, it makes you afraid to lose this love, this happiness, that feel so complete and perfect. This is what happened to Annelies, and this is the reason of her lie, of her confusion, and of all what happened.

But those around her were blind, stubborn and lacked compassion. That is the reason for which they did not understand nor see that the confusion and fear of Annelies hid something else.

And, that is a fault. A grave one even, especially in the case of Red-Oak. We shall not enter into the details of what happened in public. But, that mistake was grave enough for Red-Oak (the Earl) to be hidden in his silence now, because that is the only option he has.

My guess is that he does not even speak of this story with external persons, because, what happened is embarrassing for him, and he does not wish anyone external to know about it. 

The blogs and the emails that recall him his mistake and shortcomings on a daily basis are a thorn in his chest, yet, he can do nothing about them: he cannot stop them, nor complain about them. He is just glad this does not go farther, bringing to the public place a real account of what happened, and some unacceptable things that were done. And that won't happen, as I am a noble Prince, and my intent is not to hurt others, simply to bring Justice. 

But, there is something else we tend to forget. And those are Red-Oak's human feelings, and his sense of fairness, and the seriousness he takes in his role of father, despite all what happened, and the wound he currently has, related to the lie and the silence of his daughter.

There is perhaps the hidden door to open. Those texts, those emotions, those memories, slowly are making something rigid within Red-Oak's chest less rigid, until when this thing will be able to... move, and allow him to retrieve the plasticity of his emotions, and teach him about the necessity to forgive.

Today, one of the characters that I believe to be Annelies just sent me a song called "Stars will Align". I think that the title of this song says it all.

From the sunny rooftop / Using the spaces the Faerie Princess left

Today I recorded my video from the sunny rooftop of our house. There will be rain on Friday, then starting from next week with an important drop in temperatures.

Boscolino is Alive. Still very weak, but Alive, with a slight improvement I believe.

In a way or another, I believe that there will be a miracle in my story with Annelies. An unsuspected door will open, all of a sudden. Perhaps it solely depends on me, in the sense that, for long, I waited for external forms of support (recommendations from friends, then the interview I did but that has not yet been published). Yet, it could be that at the end the most important part are those writings, mine, and those from Annelies' perspective that I ghostwrite.

That, of course is a unusual thing, yet Annelies created the space for me to do so. And for long, I was reluctant to use that space. Yet, the space is here. I could use it even more. It all depends of my mindset. For several months, my mindset was very tired and so I was blocked in writing. Now, slowly, I am retrieving a more positive mindset.

In her last direct text to me, Annelies had asked me to remember her by the spaces she left behind, and to look for her, guaranteeing to me I would find her. I have already found her in part, as in June 2023 Annelies for the first time used the pseudonym of the Princess of Ylliriel, and initiated the novel we wrote together. But I still did not manage to meet her again in person, and that knot is related to the knot of her childhood trauma, which is related to her parents.

Having a trauma to show herself and the depth of her feelings, Annelies created this gap, this space, where I could help her express all what she never expressed. Also, through characters she crafts, she guides me subtly. It happens every day. Someone could think me crazy to believe that. Yet, I'm a rational person, capable of reasoning, capable of adding up numbers, signs and sychronicities, and of finding patterns that perhaps at first glance are not visible. 

There is a pattern. Annelies is behind it. 

And that means that the final aim is healing and reunion, from my side, and from hers.

Sometimes something seems very complicated, even hopeless. Yet, miracles exist. Also, when we have the faith, it helps those miracles to happen.

Annelies and I will be together, and this is not a doubt, and it is something Annelies recognized even in the past.

Boscolino is still Alive

Yesterday I went to sleep with a heavy heart. I knew Boscolino had no chance. I've had many little cats in the garden in the last four years, and some of them fell sick, and left us. I've shed many tears on them.

Yesterday night, Boscolino was in hypothermia, which means he could not hold on his paws, nor walk, despite all my efforts to make him drink, as he was not eating.

So this morning I very reluctantly went into the garden expecting the worse. But I did not find him in the same place where he was sleeping yesterday night (in a crate inside the barnhouse where he is protected from the cold). I looked around, and did not find him.

I don't know by what miracle, he was able to walk again, and I found him around 50 meters away, from the other side of the canal, in a sunny place. Extremely tired, extremely meager, but still Alive. And for the first time in three days, he ate a bit again.

I prayed yesterday night, I really asked God to give me a sign, and to make Boscolino live, as his state was really desperate. But to say the truth, I hoped no longer. So, for me, the fact he survived and seems to be doing better, has a deeper meaning. When you pray, when you ask Heaven for something, and that thing truly happens, it gives more strength to your faith. It makes you believe more in those ideas you do not see, in the presence of something beyond the world.

Boscolino was born three months ago, and immediately he developed a particular bond with me. He reminded me of another cat with whom I had a very strong bond I had lost, as he has the same colors. And he seemed to like me and trust me from the beginning, more than his tiny siblings who are a bit more wild. Despite his tiny size he followed me in the garden. 

I really did not want to lose him, and I put in practice all my knowledge and experience with animals to save him. Yesterday night, it seemed to me I had failed. Seeing how he was, I thought he wouldn't pass the night, and bid farewell to him.

But, Heaven listened to my prayers 

I also wrote a post (a poem with a photography I took last Sunday) on Bluesky, inspired by this story, by this miracle, that obtained an incredible success respect to what my posts usually get. And that too, is encouraging.

Many of my readers, including the family of the Faerie Princess, do not believe in God's existence. So perhaps, all what I am writing is non-sense to you.

Yet, when you meet your twin flame, you are forced to start considering that God exists. In an entirely materialistic world, twin souls cannot exist. If you recognize the existence of such a concept, then it must necessarily mean there is a spiritual dimension beyond the world, that is so powerful it can shape matter.

We have the impression the matter we see is "solid" and impossible to shape with our thoughts and beliefs. Yet, are we certain this is true?

What my eyes and my experience told me yesterday night was that Boscolino would not make it. My child's heart hoped the contrary, and I prayed for a miracle. But, honestly, I did not believe there would be a miracle, because I've been often disappointed.

Yet, this time, I was positively surprised.

And that, I believe, will also happen in my story with the Faerie Princess. Everything is connected in life. We all are connected, to what we call "Fate" and "Destiny", and to God. Each thing happens in its own time. Nothing is here by mistake, or by chance. Even if things might seem not to make sense, they will make sense one day. Everything is planned for that to happen: Fate gives the space for certain things to happen, and we must also make a conscious choice to allow these beautiful things to happen.

And, the success of this post on Bluesky, is yet another encouragement, that, smaller or greater miracles are here beyond the corner, when you no longer expect them. And, as I said earlier, the Faerie Princess has put her hand on Bluesky, and I believe she favored my post by immediately resharing it (right after its publication), with one of her profiles. That, combined with the beauty and universal value of my poem and photography, led to its success (430 likes is huge, especially that I do not interact much with people and do not go to like or reshare their posts). 

A better world

 Today I spoke of Boscolino... Unfortunately I fear I will not be able to save him...

But there is an unexplored world, where all the people and creatures we love go to. So if it happens, I will try not to be too sad, and imagine Boscolino running and climbing trees with my grandfather, my great aunt, my great grandparents, etc. in a better world.

I believe the last text the Faerie Princess published on her blog is very important and striking. It is simple, yet very evocative. 

Close to the sea / More reflections and honesty on certain details

Today, I recorded my video close to the sea, while walking. I am doing much better, still recovering though. 

The country is also doing better, but still recovering, with ups and downs...

I also did not speak of all the troubles I had in the last months with our cat-friends. A bit more than three months ago, during the "events", Calamaio, one of the our cats (who used to love to play with water, I often showed him in my videos during the summer), disappeared. We could not find him again. Of course my hope is that he is alive and will return one day. But the maximum absence of a cat who returned for us is 10 days.

We also have new tiny little cats in the garden. If you followed my bluesky profile from the start, you saw their picture. I don't really have that abundance of resources to take care of them, yet I did my best to make them survive. And when they fall ill, I have no other choice than curing them. One of them had eyes problems, now they are doing slightly better. Another one of them is seriously ill, and I don't know if he will make it. I had to make him drink in a biberon, and so on. All this is time consuming, and also adds on top of the tiredness of all the last months. I do not like to see suffering, whether in human beings, or animals. I always try to help any person or animal I see not doing well. And that's what I do with our cat friends, playing the role of a veterinary for them, when needed.

All this however does not diminish my resolve to help Annelies heal, and retrieve her, and help her obtain justice over her broken childhood (which means, obtaining peace, obtaining all the lost sense of safety). 

Walking close to the sea / Some important concepts

Walking close to the sea...

My videos and posts, most of the time lately, are repetitive. Yes.

But they are also here as a testimony I am a real person, with feelings, perfectly sane. 

As you know the past months have not been easy for the reasons you know, and this of course decreased my inspiration and my creativity. 

Now, I am slowly regaining my creativity. My determination has never faltered, even though I was deeply tired. But now, my determination is again coming back to the surface.

I know that it is our fate that Annelies and I will be together, and that in one way or another, Fate will offer us a path to find reunion, and find a deep and lasting happiness. This is a certainty in me.

I also know that I have been wronged. And I know that many of the problems stemmed from the childhood trauma Annelies keeps.

The closed door is there, among those who created that trauma in her. In one way or another, this door is going to open. I don't exactly know how, but I trust it will.

Today I received two new recommendations on my Linkedin profile (a new one, and an old one I had not yet accepted). https://www.linkedin.com/in/erik-zakhia/ Those recommendations come from very serious people, who are well-appreciated by society, and who have chosen a way that is better recognized than the way I've chosen for now. Those recommendations that now amount to 11 show that despite the unusual path I've chosen, I am a well-appreciated and valued person, and the objectives I seek in my life are also very valid. 

I'm an idealist, and look for the best for the world. I've never been moved by economic / pragmatic arguments. I'm a dreamer, a romantic, and yet, within my dreaminess, I am also a scientist. Those traits of characters have made the entourage of Annelies misunderstand who I was, confused by the trouble she felt, and by my strange insistency. 

Understanding and accepting the existence of twin soul bonds was quite complicated for them. Now, slowly, I am demonstrating to them that there are perhaps things in the world and in the universe they do not understand. The bond between Annelies and me contradicts many things we know, and we learn. And this bond allows (and gives us the justification) to do things we would not otherwise.

I would never have meddled with the affairs of another family, private affairs. But in this case, everything that regards Annelies regards also me. She is my twin soul, and she is metaphorically bleeding (in deep pain), and those who have hurt her not only refuse to see their faults, but, worse, threw all the fault at me, because they never tried to understand Annelies' needs, aspirations, dreams and deeper feelings. In front of such unfairness, I cannot remain silent.

With education, through kindness and determination, and peaceful and creative means, I will make myself, and Annelies, be heard by those who refused to hear.

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I am inviting Annelies to overcome her trauma, her phobia and her deep fear, and to place her entourage in front of the "fait accompli" of being here with me, and calling them from here. Will it go this way, or the other way around, I do not know.

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For me, it is crucial to maintain this mental and emotional pressure on the entourage of the Faerie Princess, because, at one point or another, these words that have been resonating at deep levels over the last year, will all of a sudden open a new door. 

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More to come... 

The hidden door

From the garden, after some rain. 30 mm on Thursday 23rd, and 15 mm on Friday 24th. 

The story with the Faerie Princess is not over yet. The end word has not been written. What I have learnt is that, in this story, we can only count on ourselves, and our gift. It seems that we will receive no real external support. And that means that we will be the ones to unlock the situation from within. From what I understand there is a hidden door somewhere in the family of the Faerie Princess. And the words Annelies and I write, and post, and paint, are going to open that door, at one point or another.

From the rooftop of the barnhouse

From the rooftop of the barnhouse on a rainy day... 

Supporting the Faerie Princess

For long, because of all the circunstances you know about, I could not fulfil the mission the Faerie Princess had confided to me. That of being heard, by insensitive parents, an insensitive entourage, and an insensitive society in general. That of helping her heal. That of helping express how she feels, all the feelings trapped within her.

Now, I am feeling slightly better, and have retrieved my inspiration to help the Faerie Princess, who herself asked, and is still asking me, to do what I am doing. So, if you have an interest in this story, keep on reading the blogs of the Faerie Princess and my Bluesky accounts, on a daily basis.

 

Exercising in the garden

Exercising in the garden...

In front of the barnhouse

In front of the barnhouse, still recovering...

 

Walking in the garden

While walking in the garden...

 

In the same place

In the same place as yesterday...

 

Afternoon in front of the sea

Afternoon in front of the sea...

 

Salad and pesto

Salad and pesto...  

Picking some salad

Picking some salad...  

In front of the fireplace

In front of the fireplace... 

A New Prime Minister / Wild herbs / Updated rainfall

After electing a new President, a new Prime Minister was designated. And I am glad to say that a very serious figure was chosen. His name is Nawaf Salam, and he is a... judge, president of International Court of Justice in The Hague !

What a coincidence !

At last, Lebanon is in between good hands, and hopefully things will be able to steadily improve in future. 

My daily video was interrupted because of lack of memory on my cellphone. I will fix that for tomorrow. I'm still a bit sick, still with this flu...

Updated rainfall / 14th of January 2025

July 2024: Total = 0 mm

August 2024: Total = 0 mm

September 2024: Total = 70 mm

- Saturday 14th: 1 mm (light rain)

- Sunday 15th: 3 mm (light rain showers)

- Monday 16th: 0.5 mm (drizzle)

- Tuesday 17th: 0.5 mm (drizzle)

- Sunday 22nd: 40 mm (heavy showers)

- Monday 23rd: 25 mm (heavy showers)

October 2024: Total = 5 mm

- Wednesday 3rd: 5 mm (rain showers)

- Friday 18th: 0.1 mm (drizzle)

November 2024: Total = 140 mm

- Friday 1st: 0.1 mm (drizzle)

- Saturday 2nd: 5 mm (light rain)

- Sunday 3rd: 20 mm (thunderstorms)

- Monday 4th: 1 mm (light rain)

- Sunday 10th: 5 mm (a heavy shower)

- Monday 11th: 1 mm (light rain)

- Sunday 17th: 5 mm (showers)

- Monday 18th: 35 mm (heavy rain / wind)

- Tuesday 19th: 10 mm (rain)

- Wednesday 20th: 0.1 mm (drizzle)

- Sunday 24th: 5 mm (light rain showers)

- Monday 25th: 40 mm (heavy showers)

- Tuesday 26th: 5 mm (some showers)

- Wednesday 27th: 10 mm (light rain)

December 2024: Total = 225 mm

- Tuesday 3rd: 2 mm (light rain)

- Sunday 8th: 0.5 mm (drizzle)

- Thursday 12th: 0.5 mm (drizzle)

- Saturday 21st: 5 mm (light rain)

- Sunday 22nd: 40 mm (heavy rain)

- Monday 23rd: 40 mm (heavy rain)

- Tuesday 24th: 0.5 mm (light rain)

- Thursday 26th: 40 mm (heavy rain)

- Friday 27th: 30 mm (heavy rain)

- Saturday 28th: 20 mm (rain)

- Sunday 29th: 20 mm (rain)

- Monday 30th: 20 mm (rain)

- Tuesday 31st: 10 mm (rain)

January 2025: Total = 5 mm*

- Saturday 11th: 5 mm (light rain)

TOTAL = 445 mm

In front of the barnhouse

In front of the barnhouse... Slowly healing...  

Sunday evening

Sunday evening...

From the garden by the sea: 11th of January

From the garden by the sea... It rained 5 mm during the night and at dawn... 

This evening

This evening...

 

We have a new President

Today, a new President was elected by the Parliament, after two years of political emptiness. That is a really excellent news in the process of peace building. A fundamental step. One step after another a permanent peace will be built, in Lebanon, and hopefully also in the Middle-East and in the world.

I recorded my video before the elections and did not speak about it, before being sure !

But, thankfully, it happened, and it's really something very, very positive for my country. 

Sunny rooftop

Sunny rooftop... 

Still sick

I was still sick today...  

I was sick today

I was sick today... I caught cold, a sore throat...

Building with pebbles

On the beach (another cloudy day), I had fun building a small tower with pebbles... I, since always, like to build... 

For more pictures, check my Bluesky account: https://bsky.app/profile/erik-zakhia.bsky.social

Close to the sea, on a cloudy day

From close to the sea, on a cloudy day...

 

A video from Achrafieh, Beirut

Today I went to Beirut, something that happens very rarely. There was a mass in memory of my maternal grandfather who sadly left us five years ago. And then we spent the day with my grandmother. So I took my video from our house, in Achrafieh, Beirut.

The horrible sound (I don't know if you can hear it) is that of a drone that for two hours constantly hovered over the capital. I, in the past, during the war, always avoided to do my videos when there was the sound of airplanes. But this time, it was impossible to avoid the drone, as it was constantly there, and it seems that it is there every day. It does nothing, except monitoring.

Peace does not happen in one day. We are in a transition toward a more sustainable peace. And also, regionally, I believe that we will also witness a transition toward peace. 

Life was completely normal in Beirut today. People just got used to the drone sound (something I personally am not used to), ignoring it, or joking about it.

I personally do not enjoy much large towns, and prefer the countryside. But it was also essential to see my grandmother and the rest of my family... The weather was fair, which was a luck for our prayer.

A public support

I am grateful, glad and even proud to announce that Mrs. Heistinger has even added a special page about me and my story on her writer's website. She is still looking for a journalist ready and willing to publish my story on a western newspaper. You can visit the page where Mrs. Heistinger speaks about me on the following links. It is a very meaningful support, as Mrs. Heistinger is a bestselling author about plants, seed saving, organic agriculture, and a public speaker - a real reference in one of the domains that interest me a lot, and also a very compassionate and enlightened person who seeks to sow more fairness and peace on Earth. Living in Lebanon is not an easy experience. 

https://www.andrea-heistinger.at/erikzakhia/

https://www.andrea-heistinger.at/author/andrea-heistinger/

Being born in such a region of the world makes everything more difficult, respect to someone who was born in a quiet, developed region of the world. So, being able to emerge is more difficult, but also when someone makes it through, it means that person has worked really hard on that. To give you an example, when you live in Europe, you have access to a lot of things, such as Free Libraries, where you can learn a lot of things. For someone who live in unstable countries, you do not have that luxury, and not even the peace of mind to read and learn.

And it is wrong, as I already expressed in the past, to blame the less developed countries for their lack of development / or of peacefulness, as it is human greed in general, and lack of wisdom, that is behind conflicts and unfairness. And that is a general trait shared by many human beings, and unfortunately, money and education are not a guarantee for wisdom.

2nd of January

2nd of January...  

By the sea on the 1st of January

By the sea on the 1st of January! A relatively fair weather, still cold...  

Happy 2025 !

Happy New Year ! Happy 2025 ! I wish you all the best, from the bottom of my heart : peace, health, happiness, success, inspiration and love !

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The weather started improving today. And we had around 140 mm of rain during the six consecutive days of rain.